A place for me to dump my thoughts where no one will ever know the truth. Or maybe its true here and no where else.

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way: “Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.Mermaids do not exist.
But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?They would have no sex life and could not bear children.Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: “How amazing am I ?! “
The photo is of French Model Tara Lynn 

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way: 

“Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.


But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.
Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: “How amazing am I ?! “

The photo is of French Model Tara Lynn 

Mar 17th, 2012
A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way: “Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.Mermaids do not exist.
But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?They would have no sex life and could not bear children.Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: “How amazing am I ?! “
The photo is of French Model Tara Lynn 

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way: 

“Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.


But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.
Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: “How amazing am I ?! “

The photo is of French Model Tara Lynn 

Oct 5th, 2011

That girl you call fat. Yeah the girl you say is ugly. The girl you just freaked out on because her friend lied to you? Yep that girl. Did you know because of your actions she is now standing on the edge of a cliff looking down at the emptiness below. She realized today that she truly is alone. She realized as you freaked out on her about something someone else did that she truly means nothing to anyone. Granted you meant nothing to her since she didn’t know you but you pushed her over the edge. Now as she stands here and relives every person who hurt her, lied to her, used her, abused her, treated her like nothing she realizes they won. They got what they wanted, her to disappear. Not that she was ever visible in the first place. The only time anyone ever gave her any attention was when they wanted something that she had. Now as she looks into the darkness down below she wonders, is anyone going to notice or miss her? Who will be the one to realize she hasn’t returned? Anyone at all?

Sep 13th, 2011

Sucks to know not even your family wants you around. Whatever. Just gives me more drive to move as far from this place as possible.

Jul 13th, 2011
"I think that you find your own way. You have your own rules. You have your own understanding of yourself, and that’s what you’re going to count on. In the end, it’s what feels right to you. Not what your mother told you. Not what some actress told you. Not what anybody else told you but the still, small voice."
Meryl Streep | 0nestepcloser

(Source: quote-book)

Jul 3rd, 2011
"So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."
Stephen Chbosky (via thresca)

(via quote-book)

Jul 2nd, 2011
"What you need, what you deserve, is a guy who adores you for what you are. Who doesn’t see you as a project, but a prize. you know?"
Sarah Dessen (The Truth about Forever)

(Source: kari-shma, via quote-book)

Jul 2nd, 2011

Memoirs of Me

I used to ask myself why…why psoriasis, why me, why, why, why…..lately I’ve realized I got it so that I could find my voice. I spent many years hiding, refusing to be seen, refusing to bring attention to myself. Granted the psoriasis didn’t help bring me out of my shell when I was younger but looking back I realized it made me stronger. It took me almost 15 years to find my voice once I got psoriasis. But now that I found it I don’t plan on letting it go……

Jun 16th, 2011

I’m happy for him. I know that everything he didn’t want with me he has with her but I’m ok. I wish them the best. I hope he is happy with his choices and his life now.

May 15th, 2011

NEVER USE EMUSIC. ITS A RIP OFF!

Apr 30th, 2011